that is the question!
Ok, so the hair is gone. I shaved it myself. Was a.....very surreal experience. It hadn't started falling out in clumps but every time I touched my head hairs came out and it was getting icky. Now some of you know me well enough to know that I used to cut my own hair all the time. In fact you may remember that at my wedding I had hair halfway down my back(altho it was up for the actual wedding and reception) and the next morning before brunch I chopped it to just above my shoulder so cutting off my hair isn't a new thing per se, just to this length. I had an old friend volunteer to do it but I just felt I needed to get it done and since L is still sick I don't have time to go anywhere. We went to the Dr. btw, but saw someone else and it was kind of a relief. However it was the strangest thing, the way people looked at me.....they usually stare about a foot lower and it was kind of disconcerting frankly. That and the fact that if I happen to look at them they would look away so fast, I don't care, would much rather just get a smile than the glances away I got, guess I will have to get used to that.
I didn't sleep much last night. My own fault. I read too much. A book I recommend, "Boobs:a guide to your girls", it's not about cancer, just your boobs, and is a very informative read. And another one which was also good, "Nordies at Noon" about four young survivors. Problem is, they both had too much information and of course then I began to think(never a good idea) and I came to some startling conclusions....cancer sux(ok that's not startling but...), I am in every single bad category for my cancer but two, statistically speaking...cancer sux, and....there is something that my docs are not telling me. Every...EVERY story I have read so far including a blog of someone who had it worse than me just this Dec. and has my same Dr.s, has them doing chemo every three weeks.............now some people have said that some Dr.s are just different but I'm thinking, are you sure? Don't they kind of have guidelines from past experiences on how they do treatments?
And ok, maybe I'm wrong and over thinking but hmmmmmmm.
Oh and I also found out about "chemo brain". Apparently it can fry your brain...lovely, and leave you having "blonde moments" for the rest of your life. Interesting, I'll let you know on that one, or maybe not if I forget:P
Anyway, I'm gonna try and nap with L, we're both exhausted and put the rest of this out of my brain.
But...should I get a wig? and if so, what color? I mean it will grow back and it WILL be blonde again so why would I get a blonde wig...that would be no fun in the future. But I just don't know...any thoughts?
3 comments:
I think it would be totally awesome-and I bet you are the type to totally pull it off-to get a few crazy ones so unlike your natural color (like black or shocking pink) to play around with. But also, for "normal" days, go au-natural (sp?). There is a teacher at summer school with me know who goes for the no wig but with a baseball cap as another option-she must have a ton of hats because they are all color coordinated with her outfit. Personally, when I see a bald woman out somewhere I smile-especially when eye contact is made-because I totally admire and respect her courage and her journey.
Best of luck with your decision-I'm sure you can pull any look off!
Hummm, curly and red! That is my vote for today.But I think just bold looks good too because you are beautiful!Beijos:)
I'm partial to red hair myself... :D
The last time I had my head shaved was on the insistence of a very zealous drill sergeant. So just think of it like this... you're getting the boot camp experience without all of the push-ups. :D
~G
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