ok, today has been a ugh day. Physically I have been fine mostly, a bit of pain in my boob occasionally but I chalk that up to the chemo battling the cancer and winning(think a prizefight aka Rocky, it makes the picture that much more fun:)) L is still sick, poor doll, and tomorrow if her fever has not broke we will be going to the Doc which will actually be kind of painful in and of itself as he is a friend that I used to babysit for and he and his wife and three of their kids were at our wedding and I dread telling him the news.(Yes there are some things K is not strong enough to tackle head on)
But mentally.....it has been ugh.
I actually wrote out my "official" diagnosis for the first time and I think it has sunk it finally. And just so you know what I mean, here it is-Invasive Ductal Breast Cancer stage2(T2,N0,M0), grade 3, HER2 negative, in connection with the BRAC2 gene. Sheesh..see what I mean?
I have cancer....at 35.....CANCER....what the *%!*#*$*#*#*#*#? Now I'm not a big cusser but that was exactly every word you thought it was.
I do not like this one bit
I do not like this, not a wit
I do like cancer, left breast or right
I do not like cancer in my sight
Sorry, the good DR. S just momentarily invaded.
Anyway, just thought I would share that I am still gonna win....I'm am just extremely unhappy about it at the moment.
Blog ya later-
K
2 comments:
K - I just found out that you are fighting cancer. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers in the coming months. I love reading your blog and will check it regularly for updates. Your strength and honesty are amazing!
Since you're not a big cusser and I just happen to be... :D
I will let a few choice ones slide on your behalf so you won't have the guilt of saying them yourself.
Nothing like having your own private swear-er, right? :))
~G
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