How do I fix that?

Motherhood.....one of the hardest jobs on the planet in my opinion, but one that I wouldn't trade for the world. It is my job to love, comfort, reassure, direct and on rare occasions even give my opinion...I said rare occasions:P But mostly due to the fact that we haven't actually entered the pre-teen or teen era my girls still want me around....I know they will always need me around, but wanting will be a different story someday:)

So how do I deal with this for them? How can I help them to understand that it will be ok and mom will be fine and nothing will change except my hair and energy for a few months? L is doing pretty good. She is old enough to understand most of it and has embraced writing in a diary(that she assures me will be a best seller one day) and is letting her feelings out. She is also able to help out. She can make food and clean up and so does the little things that help me and her, by allowing her to have a sense of power over everything. B, well, that's a different story. She is my baby and has always been a momma's girl, granted she has no fears and is totally a social butterfly, but she always comes back to the "nest" of mom at the end of the day and that is where she is safe and happy. Now that nest is hurt and she doesn't know what to do. She vacillates between her carefree spirited self and someone who has reverted to an actual baby. She has told all of us several times she wants to be six again(she turned 7 at the end of May) and for a bit we were puzzled, she soooooooooo wanted to be seven, but then it clicked...when she was 6, mom was fine.

WHOA.....that was like a semi hitting the brick wall of my head......how do I deal with that? And how do I make it better for her? This is not something I ever wanted them to have to deal with....and if they would have to, certainly not this young...I know I can't change fate and ultimately none of it is up to me but...as a mom...I wish I could fix it for them and make everything ok.

Anyway, just some thoughts I have been having.

On a different note, my younger brother is in town and I got to see him for a bit yesterday which was very nice...we needed to reassure each other that it would all be ok. Of course I had a touch of the stomach flu that is going around(what the....isn't it June? oh well) and spent most of the visit laying on the couch having my wonderful anti-nausea drugs work but not the migraine ones.....but it was nice to visit and finally be able to get all the info out in one batch instead of pieces. It's weird how each time I talk about it I actually feel better, like I understand it more or something, maybe its empowering me by this being my control over it, who knows!

So, I feel much better today, and since it is a sunny day, maybe we'll even hit the pool later. After we run all the other errands that seem to have slipped past me this week of course, including getting the girls ready for Girl Scout Day Camp next week....my how time flies when you're in a fog:)

Hope everyone has a wonderful father's day, give yours a hug, they're the only one you've got you know:)

Blog ya later-
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