and I'm feeling good still-yay
Pain is pretty non-existent(except when I sleep because it's hard to be comfortable in a semi-reclining position when you can't use your arms to push and get up-tg I have some abdominal muscles!) but the vest has not gotten better since the last time. In fact...I think it's worse! How can it be worse you might ask, well..easy, it just is! Maybe it's cause I am not on the pain meds or maybe it's cause I have lost 20 pounds since I last had one of these on and it is cutting into me much worse now or maybe.....it's just cause whoever invented this never had to wear one and I truly think deep down is some what of a sado-masochist....ok, that may be going to far but...seriously, a little padding along the bottom where it cuts into your ribs would be nice!
As for the ladies.....well....I have stood and looked at them in the mirror before and after my showers(the best times of my days b/c I don't have the !*#$#*$ vest on!!!) and while I must admit, the shape is definitely different from before, I'm not sure I will ever seen them as breasts. They are no longer just blobs but indeed nicely shaped...things. They do look much more like breasts do....at least like breasts look on paper or carved in stone anyway. And hopefully they will look totally fab under clothing even without a bra(still my number 1 goal~never wear a bra again!) but I will reserve judgement on that until the drains are gone and let you know later.
The absolutely best part of this so far though......my port scar...it is..disappearing!!!! I think it's due to the placement of the implants and their shape which lays much more naturally under my skin than the expanders because for the first time ever it is a pretty smooth spot and almost invisible...which is a tiny bright spot in this whole thing but ...I'll take all the teeny spots I can get because I figure they can patch together to one big giant shining sun in the end.
So...while I am happily on the road to be done with this all soon(hopefully VERY soon, like tomorrow would be great:P ) I still have a long road ahead of me in the game of life and I intend on traveling it and winning every battle I encounter along the way, or least putting up a darn good fight before I acquiesce nicely and move on to the next thing:)
Love to you all-
Blog ya later-
K
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Did you wear your wig? I feel I won't ever use it. I can't stand things on or in my hair. I wore a scarf once and it drove me batty... but i trust if you say people need me to wear a wig. do the general public stare too long? do my kids need me to wear one? I really don't care about people looking at me. so it would really be to help my family.
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