Huzzah!!!

I am done!!!!!!

With reconstruction that is! I have no drains, no vest o'death and I don't even have to wear the stupid tight athletic bra 24/7 anymore!!!!!!!! My doctor did say to achieve the best results I should continue to wear a bra during the day for the next 4 weeks to 4 months.....since apparently it takes that long for the protective sac to completely reform around the muscle....ok, I can do that because I can wear any kind of bra I want. Of course that provides a whole new set of challenges as I came home after the appointment and tried on one of the old bras I had saved because it was one of my pretty lacy ones ~I guess I was kind of hoping that I might be able to wear it again on special occasions if I wanted to...alas, it didn't really fit...sigh.

Now..let me explain a bit though....my now mostly perfect breasts are a beautiful teardrop shape.....take a second and imagine that ....... then imagine most every bra you have ever seen/worn......they operate on the premise that you are rounder and usually need some 'lift' .....see where I'm headed?!?!?! So while the D under wire is actually perfect for the bottom of my boobies.....the top.....well let's just say there was enough material flapping that a strong breeze could potentially fly me like a kite. Ok, not really...but that mental image was just too entertaining to pass up(admit it...when you think of it like that it makes you laugh doesn't it :D )

So on the advice of a very dear friend I will be shopping for a demi style bra and a few camisoles or tanks with shelf bras to wear around the house and at night. I would rather have to do that or even sleep in the dreaded athletic bra I have now than risk having to go back in and have her repair a "migrating" boob and start all over again.

Other than that and not being able to lift weights(cause you know I do that soooo much) or hang from bars(also an activity I participate in regularly....NOT) I am pretty much free to do as I please. I have decided for my peace of mind..and so as to not have to redo this anytime soon.. to wait until after spring break to participate in volleyball though....sigh....kinda sad about that as I was really excited, but then again...it will be worth the wait in the long run.

So while I do not have to "worry" about my boobies and the reconstruction anymore...I will never stop worrying about cancer. There is always a chance it can come back, and while that chance gets slimmer each year further away I get....it does not go away...EVER. So please remember that when talking to anyone who has battled cancer...while they may have won the battle....the war is never won per se....it may just end up being a stalemate for the rest of their lives but there will always be that specter of the big C haunting them from the other side and it will never be over....NEVER....it will only be better. My life is better now...my life is awesome actually, but that specter still hovers on the sidelines and while I am trying to not cower in fear and make every decision based on the what-ifs....I will never be completely cured....until they actually discover a cure, that's the bottom line.

On a completely different note...my little Bella(yes she has changed her name this year...which is highly ironic since I wanted to call her Bella years ago and she stubbornly insisted that is was just Belle...like Belle-beauty~from Beauty and the Beast~now oddly enough some other movie character has influenced that decision!) now has contacts!!!!!!! She looks beautiful, she always did, but it is so nice not to have her big brown eyes hidden behind glasses anymore. And man o man....it just brings into focus how much I really do need to be around for the years to come because otherwise Ed could end up in jail in about 7 years after fighting off the boys who will come beating down the door for the girls:P

Ok...soooo, I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving and remember all of the things you get to be thankful and take time to appreciate them as we enter the busy holiday season.

Blog ya later-
K