End of Year Review

Am I glad to to see 2009? Yes, yes and YYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
2008 was just plain.....oh how shall I put this....sucky.

Now, don't get me wrong, there were good times.....ok, I have to be honest at this point, I am having a hard time recalling any...of course the girls are healthy and have grown more and changed each second but .....well, you know what I mean, right?

I could do a laundry list of the bad things that have happened this year but instead I think I will just say that I am happy it is over(if you really want to know you can check the blog archive for most of them).

I am ready to start off this new year with a new me....and I do mean that literally since there are whole new parts that will be added soon enough. That and....I am soooooooo very happy about this coming Friday and saying bye-bye to the port. That will start the year off right I think:) And next week I get the new ta-tas and then the journey of "How big will K be?" begins:D
I am a bit more apprehensive about it as it gets closer and I think about it and how the stretching of not just the skin but the muscles too will feel, but....I can honestly say now that I do want boobies. For a while the idea of just not having to deal with them appealed to me, but not any more. I miss the definition they gave to my turtlenecks(yes, they really don't fit well at all without boobs!!!!The things you learn, huh?) and I even miss the motion of them...the gentle swing, or not so gentle depending on how fast I moved(but you get the idea), of them when I would roll over, bend over...ok breathe even....it's a strange empty space feeling there still and I am glad I experienced that first because I think it will make me even happier with my new ones:)

Oh yes....I am ready to be blond again too.....and for it to be long.....I miss my hair, especially when its cold outside.

I am even ready to start exercising full force, in fact I'm kind of craving it.....and that is a strangely hilarious thought as I don't particularly like to exercise. I enjoy playing sports and being active but I dread just "routine" exercise....it's boring to me. So the fact that I want to do it...well...that just means it really is a new me....or maybe its just the "New Year's Resolution time" thing that's happening in my brain:P Regardless...I want to do it and I will try and be patient as the next few weeks drag on and I can't yet.

Mostly though I just want to live. To wake each morning and enjoy the smell of the coffee brewing. To smile as I watch the girls head to the bus stop and ponder how amazing they are and how fast they have grown. To kiss Ed as he heads to work and then to settle in with Sasha and watch the morning shows as I scratch her head and surf the net. To live every day as best I can and waste time only when I'm with my kids, since then it's not really a waste:) To love everyone who comes into my life because they are there for a reason.....ok, that one may be hard, maybe just to love that they came into my life. To do the things that make me happy and not worry about what makes everyone else happy. To be happy being me. To live.

And so with that I wish you all a very Happy New Year. I thank you all again for being a part of my life and even if it wasn't the best thing that brought you here, I am still glad you came along with me on this journey, of course I do hope that we never go down this particular fork in the road again but....I am still glad you all were here.

Thank you for being my friends............yeah I'm singing the Golden Girls theme now...are you?

Blog ya later-
K