October

Wow...time flies when your...alive! ;)

I know I left off somewhat abruptly with our trip this summer...mostly because I just couldn't get my head around going back and the changes.  I mean, I expected change, just not the ones I saw ya know!!!  So I will post some more pics in the next few blogs but for now just a bit of catch-up:)

We started the school year just fine..and by we I mean everyone else as I didn't actually have to start anything for the school year per se ...but it has been very nice.  Everyone seems to be happy with their teachers and classes and so far nothing too crazy with friends or homework so it has been a nice start!  Both girls have also had three weekends of volleyball games now and the 7th graders are really coming toegther as a cohesive group, I think playing together for the fourth year now is making a huge difference, they really work well as  a team and everyone just keeps getting better..AND..they keep winning!  The fifth graders are doing much better than last year but it is a mixed bunch with some new girls and some who this is the third year playing toegther and at this age it makes it very interesting!  That...and..we still struggle with serving and moving for the ball but, they played fantastically on Saturday even if they didn't win the matches, they won games and most importantly they played as a team..helped each other, called the ball and were getting it over in two and three hits...that rocks for a 5th grade team...now just to work on serving and we'll blow everyone away!

I have managed to not overly volunteer myself this year, but I am doing more big things than in the past, most likely due to the fact I am not helping in the classroom nearly as much this year..ok...not at all...it makes me sad.....and yet, it is a step that I knew was coming...I just thought it was next year!!!!!  However, I am really really glad Miss B has the teacher she has because she is being prepared...and otherwise, next year would have been just the worst for my happy-go-lucky-free-spirited-child-who-procrastinates more than her mother.....so instead I am having to find ways to fill my time elsewhere, so far it has been suprisingly easy to do!!!!

And now for something completely different....

I turned 3 yesterday! :) I am so happy to have made it here, especially as I have some numbness in my leg and due to where the numbness was, when I was in for a routine checkup with my Oncologist two weeks ago...she ordered a bone scan.  And then I spent the next seven days in a living limbo-land again...except...this time well...in some ways it was far far scarier because bone scans look for mets...and mets means death, no escaping, just prolonging...and...I have plans!!!!!  Now..don't get me wrong, the prospect of dying does not scare me, I dealt with that three years ago, and its not that there are tons of things I have to go see or do...what scares me about death...and honestly it makes me more sad than anything else..is what I would miss with the girls...that is what I hate, I want to be here for everything.  So I'm really not all that sure what happened that week..I should probably double check that I didn't sign myself up for anything!!!!  However, the bone scan came back totally normal(YAY and phew) and then after that more blood work and xrays that came back fine too, soooooo I'm going with it being residual chemo effects as what I am taking to get rid of that in my feet is also working on the leg now.....(which is what I hypothesised all along btw...)  Now, I am glad I have such proactive doctors who want to rule out the bad things, I really really am....but..I am also glad that I know my body so well, I think that will only help me in the long run.

And now we head into October...the month of pink....and I'm more torn than I have ever been about it....

I do know this, please do self exams ladies, take care of yourselves and if you think something is not right, have it checked, and guys too, men get Breast Cancer too.....early detection does save lives and knowing that and what to do is good...but...we need more...we need cures..and I do mean plural, there is no easy answer to any of this but I think most of all we still need to come together, that is the only way to really win.

Hope your fall has started off well!

Blog ya later-
K