Perspectives

Hello All!

I know, I know, looooooooooooooooooooong time no write, sorry.  I wasn't sure what to say for a long time and then school started and everything else and it just got zany!  On that end, everything is going well-yay!  Lexi has adjusted to middle school quite easily and is actually enjoying all the changes and new classes and even the new people!!!!  Bella loves her teacher and classmates and we are very happy with everything too...except for the fact that both Ed & I have recently felt...well...out of it at the elementary school.  It's very weird!  We have a foot in both worlds and now seeing all of the teeny tiny kindergartners and the fact that Lexi towers over them(she's 5ft tall!!!!!) and Bella is starting to sprout as well...it just feels like we don't fit in as much anymore!  Not that anyone at or with the school has done anything to us at all, not at ALL, in fact some things have gone better than in past years!  It is just a feeling...hard to explain but we both sense it and it is somewhat saddening as it represents the ending of an era......

How different it was on the other end...we were just starting out and the big new world of elementary school seemed giant and exciting and a phase that was going to take ages to get through, instead, it has flown by in the blink of an eye......   I don't think I'm ready to move on yet!  It was safe, and happy and you knew everyone and they knew you and you knew all the kids faces and many of their names and they all still needed your help!  Not that they don't still need your help as they grow older but...it is different, a different kind of help and most certainly a different level of involvement...and yes, that is ok and right and how it should be...but it doesn't mean I have to like it!

And then I look at me and take a deep breath and go whoa.....it has now officially been over two years since my last chemo treatment(yay) and in 10 days it will two years NED.......that's kind of crazy!  I mean...in some ways it doesn't even feel like that ever happened, it was just a reaaaaaally bad movie that I watched...for a looong time.....and then I look down....and must acknowledge that yes, that did in fact happen and yes, I do in fact no longer have the boobs I was born with and that is ok 'cause.....I look  awesome in a tshirt!  LOL....kidding, I mean, not about that, it is truly a wonderful perk to be able to wear a tshirt without a bra and have it look great, but honestly I'm beyond happy to be alive...that is the best part...that is the ONLY part that matters.  And that led me thinking while I was watching a show where they were lamenting women's boobs "moving south" after menapause...it's all about your perspective!  Not looking down, well yes that does make it seem more of a lost cause sometimes, but in the fact that you can look at them at all!  For even I haven't gone to the farthest edge of that perspective, for which I am so thankful and happy, or else I would not be writing this...for the edge is gone and not being around.  So keep in mind your perspective...and that of the other guy too.  Not just in aging and changes and boobs and foobs but in everything.  I think if we all just take the time to look at all the perspectives that are out there, well, not only would our eyes be opened to amazing possiblities but also to how similar we all are in our fears and hopes and needs and wow what a wonderful world that would be!


Hope you all have been doing great and enjoyed this end to summer start of the school year.

Blog ya later-
K