Of cancer...and chemo in particular!(I am sure I will do this again after all of the boob stuff)
I have been compiling my list of these things all summer long and have decided to share...I've shared pretty much everything else so why not, eh? I am going to go backwards with the list though....
The Ugly.....
Only one thing really comes to mind...my scar from the port. Its not even that big, but it is in a spot that will be forever visible. I don't consider the other scar(from the lymph nodes) as ugly because it is a-under my arm and b- in the shape of a smiley face which I happen to think was a sign since the cancer had not spread and so it is a happy reminder of that:)
The BAD.....
chemo itself....I mean the meds are all about killing cells...'nuff said
nausea
pain
hot flashes(which are really coming on strong at the moment and are not fun at all)
losing my hair
feeling out of control
tiredness
having to explain to my girls
telling my mom and dad
telling Ed
The Good.....
There are a few things that are not so bad side effects of chemo and I figured they deserve their time in the spotlight since they are some of the things which I have actually enjoyed or learned from...
Not having to shave my legs or armpits!!!!!!
No period since June!!!!!
Being able to eat really super spicy foods(no taste buds:P )
Reconnecting with old friends
Finding out who my friends were
Finding out I had more friends than I realized
Realizing life can be short so enjoying every moment
Finding out that my girls are very strong young women already
Being reminded again of just how amazing of a man I married
Accepting that once again....it is not about my plans and timetables, but His
Allowing my ego and self to take a back burner and let others care for me
Finding out I am strong too
And am sure I will think of more....or maybe they will just evolve with the boob stuff!
Anyway.....thank you all for being with me on this journey, I wish none of us would have had to make it at all but I am glad you were with me:)
Blog ya later-
K
1 comment:
You amaze me. I love your honesty and being able to articulate your mind so well. God is holding you in His palm. Jean
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