So Sad

What do you do when one of the most constants in your life goes?
How do you heal from that?
Replace that empty hole in your heart?

He was my "Man". He greeted me everytime I came home and snuggled up to say hi. He would gently bump my head and then rub my face and let me know just how much I was loved and wanted and needed. If he knew I was upset he would stretch his paw up and softly caress my cheek as if to say, "Don't worry K, things will get better I promise, and in the meantime, I am here for you." When I was sick he would lay by my side and just be there to help me feel better. His purring worked wonders for me and it always made me happy to know he was happy. He slept with me every night, graduating from my head to the side of my pillow as he got bigger, but he was always there. I didn't even have to speak..all I had to do was think his name and he would appear in the door and cock his head sideways and say, "Murrrrr?" and then he would run and jump into my lap or run up to bump my head. He was always with me and now I feel very alone.

I knew this day was coming......but I never thought it would be this soon. I just wanted one more chance to snuggle, to rub his head between his ears and under his chin, to have him climb my back and wrap himself around my neck like a stole.....just one more day, hour..minute, so he would know for sure just how much I needed him too. And so I could thank him for always being there for me.

So M-man-this is for you-I love you and miss you and always will.